Yesterday and today have been awful for me. I’ve been doing all this self care but nothing has been working. Today my son, who I had to give my beautiful cat when my husband had a stroke and we had to move to an apartment, told me my cat is about to die. I cried so hard. She was my buddy and made my family system so happy. So let me tell you my family system is very disordered right now. These are the days I want to give into the pain and not keep on my journey of recovery. I want to sit in a cave and just be alone. But I’m still keeping going and will wake up tomorrow. I will probably still have a migraine and life will go on. I’m just really heartbroken.