Still in Mourning

Hi all, I’m still here and still in mourning. My nephew was a special guy. He was a courageous young man, an avid hunter and fisher. He was kind and considerate. The memorial service was so hard for me to get through. It was beautiful and sad. My brother was broken up as well asContinue reading “Still in Mourning”

Quote Sunday

“Bad things do happen how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have – life itself.” – WalterContinue reading “Quote Sunday”

So tired

I have been struggling with poor sleep for a couple of months. I am getting about 3 hours of sleep per night. The tiredness I feel is so invasive. It has taken over my life. I think my medications are to blame. My psychiatrist encouraged me to get ECT so I am looking at thatContinue reading “So tired”

New Memories

I feel like I’m in some sort of waiting game. New memories of my traumatic past. Memories I don’t want to know. I don’t get asked if I want these memories. If I did, I would say no thank you. A person’s brain is so remarkable. It can actually compartmentalize trauma and lock it awayContinue reading “New Memories”

Major Hiccup

Well I was very triggered by my last post. The day after I suddenly was dizzy, had vertigo, and could not keep anything down. I’ve been suffering with this for almost a week. I did see a doctor and was given medication to help. They do not know what is wrong and are hoping theContinue reading “Major Hiccup”

Memories

Memories are something that can be good or they can be bad. I have a lot of great memories from my time as a wife and mother. I really don’t have many good memories about my childhood. I can recall some memories of going on some great vacations but that’s about it. My memories fromContinue reading “Memories”

Having such a hard few days

Yesterday and today have been awful for me. I’ve been doing all this self care but nothing has been working. Today my son, who I had to give my beautiful cat when my husband had a stroke and we had to move to an apartment, told me my cat is about to die. I criedContinue reading “Having such a hard few days”

Having a really bad week

I have been struggling with level 10 migraines for the past week. I finally was able to talk to a sympathetic doctor today. I hope relief is coming. I know my chronic pain issues all are a result of the trauma I suffered. I promise as soon as I feel better I will explain myContinue reading “Having a really bad week”