So tired

I have been struggling with poor sleep for a couple of months. I am getting about 3 hours of sleep per night. The tiredness I feel is so invasive. It has taken over my life. I think my medications are to blame. My psychiatrist encouraged me to get ECT so I am looking at thatContinue reading “So tired”

New Memories

I feel like I’m in some sort of waiting game. New memories of my traumatic past. Memories I don’t want to know. I don’t get asked if I want these memories. If I did, I would say no thank you. A person’s brain is so remarkable. It can actually compartmentalize trauma and lock it awayContinue reading “New Memories”

Realizing Life Was Not Normal

After the rape of 1999, I was in a state of constant fear, depression, anxiety, insomnia, and PTSD. The effects of the rape were also showing up in my physical body. I started having daily migraines, fibromyalgia, and intestinal issues. I still struggle with those today, in fact I deal with chronic migraines everyday. IContinue reading “Realizing Life Was Not Normal”