Still in Mourning

Hi all, I’m still here and still in mourning. My nephew was a special guy. He was a courageous young man, an avid hunter and fisher. He was kind and considerate. The memorial service was so hard for me to get through. It was beautiful and sad. My brother was broken up as well asContinue reading “Still in Mourning”

Poem Saturday

A Psalm of Life by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow Tell me not, in mournful numbers,Life is but an empty dream!For the soul is dead that slumbers,And things are not what they seem. Life is real! Life is earnest!And the grave is not its goal;Dust thou art, to dust returnest,Was not spoken of the soul. Not enjoyment,Continue reading “Poem Saturday”

So tired

I have been struggling with poor sleep for a couple of months. I am getting about 3 hours of sleep per night. The tiredness I feel is so invasive. It has taken over my life. I think my medications are to blame. My psychiatrist encouraged me to get ECT so I am looking at thatContinue reading “So tired”

Poem Saturday

 CINDY WILLIAMS GUTIÉRREZ“THE SMALL CLAIM OF BONES” what my body knowsis not a lie it’s nota lie i tell you it is notit’s nothing short of truthand nothing largermy past lodgesin my marrow and ifi wanted a transplantthere’d be no matchothers’ sorrows dwarfmy petty traumas stillthese bones are minewhen they creakwhen they moanwhen they whinethere’sContinue reading “Poem Saturday”

What Is SRA?

Satanic/occult ritual abuse will also include acts which were listed under spiritual abuse and ritual abuse. – Religion is heavily involved, mainly in the involvement of worship to satan, as well as including pagan rituals and witchcraft. – The abuse that is part of the ceremonies involved with satanic ritual abuse is often quite severe, bizarre,Continue reading “What Is SRA?”

Poem Saturday

I decided during the weekends I’m going to keep it light. I had a very triggering morning due to one of the meetings I attended, which is why I’m gonna keep it light. One of my favorite poems is by Robert Frost called “The Road Not Taken.” I did not know he wrote it asContinue reading “Poem Saturday”

Random Thought

I’ve had a lot of time this week to meditate and think. It has been so aggravating to be stuck in bed again. I hate being stuck in bed. I hate having health issues which are a result of the past trauma I have had. I have chronic migraines (every day), fibromyalgia, and intestinal issues.Continue reading “Random Thought”

New Memories

I feel like I’m in some sort of waiting game. New memories of my traumatic past. Memories I don’t want to know. I don’t get asked if I want these memories. If I did, I would say no thank you. A person’s brain is so remarkable. It can actually compartmentalize trauma and lock it awayContinue reading “New Memories”